Dear Friends, THANK YOU

Yesterday I wrote a post about my lack of self-confidence at the moment, when it comes to writing my blog (Dear Seed of Self-Doubt). Are people reading me? Am I a good enough writer? What if I don’t have what it takes?

One of my greatest fears is that what I am writing is disappearing down an infinite black hole, as if I’m sitting in complete darkness and there’s no one around me.

Well all my fears were dispelled when I woke up this morning to find that not only did I receive some beautiful comments and messages, but also more people read my post than ever before.

Now the last thing I want to get hung up on is how many people are reading, so just to know that YOU are reading this makes me smile.

However the BEST part of my day, which had been lousy until about midday, (among other things the lady at NIB spoke to me like I was an idiot, and then I cried), was the most beautiful message written by a wonderful friend of mine from my mothers group.

I hope she doesn’t mind, but I’d love to share it with you.

Oh Melissa, unfortunately this is how I have spent most of my life! Always doubting and looking for validation from everyone...anyone! You are one very talented lady, you've found your passion and a way to express your soul. I on the other hand, since leaving my world of corporate career success, am still searching, yearning to find 'my place' now that I'm a mother. Self doubt can be debilitating, I know this from years of experience. Your self-doubt just means to me that you are human, but please don't give in to it, don't let it take hold; it is very hard to break the habit. I don’t know if I’ve told you but you inspire me, you are someone I look up to as a mother and a beautiful expressive soul. And now if you as a person, who I see as motivated, passionate and with purpose, can have self doubt then that just gives me hope. Even though blogging may not be ‘my thing’ you make me confident that soon I will discover what ‘my thing’ is even amongst the chaos in my mind.

With friends like this wonderful woman, who cares if my blog fails miserably and winds up covered in cobwebs in the furthest recesses of the blogosphere? I am so blessed to know someone as beautiful as her, let alone have her as a new friend in my life.

Thank you to everyone who reads me. It means so much.